Anni Crofut is one of the local writers performing an original monologue in
‘Motherhood Out Loud’ on March 28 + 29 at the Unicorn Theatre in Stockbridge, presented as a benefit for WAM Theatre and the Berkshire Festival of Women Writers. Below is an honest and heartfelt poem Anni wrote about her own experience with Motherhood. Anni will perform her monologue on March 29 at the 2pm performance and will participate on the panel following that performance.
Motherhood is –
Getting no sleep
Saying yes, but meaning no
Saying no but meaning yes
Wearing your heart outside your body forever more
Laughing at first-grade humor
Laughing at adolescent humor
Not laughing at any humor because nothing is funny when you are that tired
Being a nag
Hating yourself for being a nag
Doing cartwheels in order not to be a nag
Hating yourself for not being a nag
Picking up socks
Leaving socks right where they are in the hopes they’ll be picked up before the turn of the century
Hating everyone else for not picking up the socks
Driving
Knowing you would lay your life down for your kid
Learning the times tables you never learned to begin with
Having all of your flaws pointed out daily, in detail
Lists
Love
Laundry
Postponement of self-fulfillment
Gratification because nothing beats seeing your kid succeed
Anger
Astonishment
Awe
Knowing how little you know
But pretending anyway
Until that doesn’t work anymore
Then using Google
Giggling
Grunting
Groaning
Gazing at this person you’ve raised
Holding your kid
When they run into your arms
And letting them leave when they’re ready.
Anni Crofut’s eclectic path includes her profession as a jewelry designer (Anni Maliki), her beloved bi-cultural life and marriage (Indonesia and the US), her children, family and friends. Anni’s passion is the riddle and joy of integrating these many riches. To this end, she writes, dances, performs and designs.
www.annimaliki.com
Then being a nag again, because you are one
but doing a cartwheel to prove nags can do cartwheels
and landing on your butt, again, and laughing.
Anni…I kind of wonder if you’ve been spying on me.
Like in Rachel’s post…you get me.
Thank you.
See you this weekend! xo S